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Escape

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Have you ever thought of escape?
Not in the way of packing your bags
and running away
Buying a ticket for the bus
or even a plane
always a one way
just to make it harder to go back
Not in a permanent way of death either
how could anyone ever make that decision
the questions rise too furiously in me to do that
What could be waiting on the other side?
Will anything be waiting?
Is there even a place to wait?
Sometimes I wish I could just bring everything that makes me, me
together in a tight little bundle
and squeeze it till it explodes
in every direction
in every color and shade
to shed this skin that keeps me in shape
to lose this mind that tears me apart
to lose this heart that beats in pain with every thought
that consumes me
so that for once
I wasn't anything
Not a number, or even a name
not a brother, a sister, or a friend
any type of nameable thing
I guess not even a thing
To simply cease to exist
So that I would be without worry
without need
I wouldn't feel sadness or loneliness
I wouldn't even feel happy or in love
Drained or full
Just nothing
and maybe everything
I could be incomplete yet utterly complete
No more what if's, or what can I do?
To know my purpose and not have to dwell on how to fulfill it
Just to be able to do it
Have you ever thought of escape?
I've just been thinking about it.
Even more with this new year that has come upon us.
Just the feeling of constraints lying everywhere in the form of skin.
And don't get the wrong thoughts from this piece. I really am happy right now.
I feel as if I can love everything and see everything in a more beautiful life than I have even seen it.
Its just a new way that I've been thinking.
Happy new years!
Oh and this marks my 40th deviation. Yea!
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This is really cool! I like it! -huggles-